So, apologies for not updating the Blog in a while, even though it’s all shiny and new and needs all the help it can get to lift it off the ground… but I’ve got a very good excuse, and if you can’t accept it then you don’t understand what it means to be me, so anything I post won’t be of interest to you anyway.
I’ve been busy enjoying something that I’ve worked to achieve for years. I’m currently in the East of England studying for a degree in Literature and History, just like I’ve wanted for what feels like forever. I say studying—I’ve only had lectures since Monday. Most of the past fortnight has been a blur, and yet we all somehow feel like we’ve been here forever. It’s difficult to wrap my head round it all.
I’m going to do a proper update, I promise, but for now I just want to assure those of you who are interested that I am totally and incredibly happy. The past year of my life was a little bit of a nightmare and even when the nightmare ended, it would still gnaw at me every time a memory entered my mind. Now, I barely even think about it, and when I do, I just get this wonderful wave of relief that it’s all over. I feel like someone has given me—like I’ve given myself—the opportunity for a whole new start.
I tried to do the whole “fresh start” thing at the end of last year, as you may have read, but I learned that it’s not entirely your own decision to get a fresh start. Yes, you need to decide to take that opportunity, but sometimes it also takes a change of scenery, some new friends, or maybe just growing that little bit older and—hopefully—wiser.
I’m going to use this new beginning as I tried to use the last one—to focus a bit more on myself and what I think and feel, and I’ll talk about that in a further post once I settle back into a routine!
But for now, I’m going to have a cup of tea and some Nurofen. Having fun is hard.
In the meantime, here’s me dressed up as a zebra.